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I’m finally going home, it has been over a year since I’ve last been there and feels much longer. I just cannot wait to see all my old friends; it’s nice seeing my parents too.. sort of. Though they do a damn good job at making me feel like shit.

I also got an email from this website’s hosting server and there is going to be a dns change. This presents a problem.
The laptop I had all my domain information was stolen about 3 years ago, so I can’t remember where I registered this domain, or any information (password, username, etc).
Possibly when they make the change this site will just redirect to my registrar, but then.. I’m not sure.
The switch will be tomorrow, so expect this place to offline for a minute.

Work has been pissing me off lately. Customers are complete idiots, and one of the shift-leads really gets under my skin and makes me want to go crazy. She’s demanding as fuck, has the loudest Starbuckslike voice and comes off as really fake. She tells me what to do, which I’m totally fine with (being that I’m under her) but it’s just constant. She asks me to sweep; which I already know do WITHOUT someone telling me too, and the second I’m done she tells me to take out the trash, and so forth. Really, I’m not an idiot. I know what needs to be done. It’s only when it is something new I’ll have to be told to do it, and even then I can figure it out on my own. She also apologizes to me about 3 times a day for her bitching, and the first few days it was alright but now I’m tired of it.. seriously, I don’t believe in apologizes if they are constantly being made.
But it’s not making me want to quit or anything, it just gets annoying. This place is so scattered, but I guess it’s normal for anyone who has ever worked at a starbucks to think all other places are messy.

I got off pretty early - around noon, came home and took a 6 hour nap. So now it’s 1:11am and I’m up, argh. I hate it when I’m up past 11:00 now.
And I did pretty shitty today as far as my diet. I stuck to all the low-cal low-fat stuff but ended up eating ALOT of it. Dammit. Now I just feel like shit and bloated.
I’ve also been fucking up lately with alcohol. Dammit. Dammit Dammit. I thought I was over all that.. I ended up having a few on sunday and was hungover as shit when I went to work the next morning. And then I had a bunch last night.. I went by a friend’s house and she had some vodka and a beer. She offered. I hesitated but gave in. This turned into me buying a 6 pack and knocking those back once I got back to my house. So again, I was hungover as shit when I got to work, and I was also 20 minutes late. I called to tell them I was going to be late but that bitch of a coworker got on the phone, I told her and she just hung up on me (UGH).

I don’t get it. I go on a diet, get positive about myself; only to go back to my drunken fatty ways. It seems to go in about 3 month intervals. And this bullshit has been going on for years, I’m so tired of it. What’s wrong with me?

I’m excited about visiting home but at the same time I am scared. I hate that I know that I cannot control myself. Willpower has left the building once I have a single beer, and my social anxieties make it damn near impossible to not drink when I’m hanging out with people.

After a year and a few months later I FINALLY got my Wendy O. Koopa tattoo colored yesterday! I’ll get a new photo soon. It looks WONDERFUL! And the irony is that the guy who finished it is named Mario (he also did my sister and I’s owls). He even said that if I were to get more Super Mario characters, he’d give me a discount and sounded quite excited about it, haha. I’ve already much considered getting a bunch of characters, and now I’m REALLY thinking about it.

My Wendy is on my wrist, and I’ve put to thought about getting other characters from the water world (from Super Mario Bros. 3, since Wendy is the boss of that world). I think getting the Bloopers and Cheep-Cheeps would look really cool, but I’d like to keep them below my elbow… and perhaps, what’s above my elbow could be Zelda images? I’m such a geek.

I love it, since whenever I feel down I can just look at my wrist and see Wendy and Super Mario has it’s way of making me feel nostalgic and like a kid again. I’m officially addicted to tattoos.. I mean, I’ve always liked them, but whenever I would get one I’d get very nauseous. But this time around, I watched him the whole time and conversed with other folks in the shop. Whenever he got down to the lower part of the tattoo was when I had to clinch my teeth a bit.

And folks, go visit Mario Gifs… which is near approaching 9 years of existence on the web (wow.. time flies).

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I also added many categories to this blog, it was a huge pain in the ass having to go back and edit all (near 200) posts and took about an hour but I managed. I just didn’t know what exactly to do about the older posts that involved me hanging out with the several folks who ultimately fucked me over. I have a category titled ‘evil people’.. but at the time I hung out with these folks I was too damn ignorant to know what they were going to do to me. There are also many posts I made back in 2007 under the influence of drugs, so I marked some under ‘drugs’ just to make a point of how irresponsible and lack-of-thinking they had made me.

It’s also quite pathetic that most of my posts are under ‘fuck my life’ and ‘fuck the world’.. but, well. That’s how I often feel.

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I also got two stickers for my truck in the mail, one says = ‘6 billion miracles are enough’ and the other is a Darwin fish. I hope I piss off some christians (joking). I’m pro-choice and anti-breeding, and highly believe that evolution is a fact and god is a theory, and have no problem expressing that. My intention is not to criticize people who have kids, but to say that people shouldn’t have unwanted children and there’s nothing immoral or wrong with abortion, unless you are using it as birth control - which I disagree with.. But one should use logical thinking when it comes to bringing a person into the world when you aren’t financially or emotionally ready.

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I also got the Orange Box from amazon, I really want to play it but I’ll wait until my current Fallout 3 obsession dies down (which, it won’t for awhile). I’ve already played Half-Life 2 back when it first came out and was addicted to that, even named one of my rats ‘Lamar’; haha.

I made some changes to the about page and linkage, so go ahead and check them out. I figured I should get a little more in depth about myself so folks have a better idea of me.

I also really want to re-categorize all my posts… but, uhm. That would take a very long time. I think having just 3 categories is a little vague, and want to add more. It will be boring and tedious though; but with it annoying me as much as it is I’m pretty sure I’ll get around to it.

I will continue to try to live my life as I should; however, it is so much more difficult when you’ve got to walk everywhere. Matt and I went grocery shopping the other day and had to leave out a lot of needed items simply because we couldn’t carry a 12 pack of beer, apple juice and milk for an entire mile. Of course we decided on getting the beer… who needs juice and milk anyways?

The news of Joey taking my truck has spread like a wildfire throughout the people I associate with. Even people I’ve never met before know my situation. There’s now an immense line of haters waiting to kick his ass. I’ve made it clear that I get the first swing.

Violence isn’t the answer, of course, but it would be nice to take all that rage out on him. Most of all, I’d like to be able to see him get arrested, all while I’d point and laugh.

I just cannot believe someone would lie like the way he did… I cannot fathom it. I’ve now changed my perception on people. When I first meet someone now, they are considered shit, and once they prove to me they are worth being around I will accept them. I’ve been walked on for my entire life because my problem is that I cannot say no, and I put other people’s best interests before mine. It’s a catch 22 – it pleases me to please people. So that makes me selfish. Right? Everyone is egotistical, you may deny it, but when it comes down to it… all we want is to benefit ourselves.

Meanwhile, my other problems still exist. My friend from back in El Paso is still missing… it’s been 10 days now. A part of me tells me that he’s dead, but I don’t want to consider that. Yoyo is too much of an amazing person to die, too young, too enthusiastic about everything and so much fun to be around. But he wouldn’t just leave us; he would make a phone call, leave a note… SOMETHING. He loves us.

I LOVE YOU YOYO, PLEASE COME HOME! Adam Thomas Orrey…

Taking into account my truck state of affairs, my cousin said I may stay in this house longer, but I choose not to. I want to be out by the 30^th. If I don’t have my car by then, I can rent one (Progressive covers car rental in case of theft). Matt has to be out of his apartment by then as well. He’s not living there now (he’s been staying with me) but his belongings are still there. WE JUST NEED A FUCKING CAR TO FIND JOBS, AN APARTMENT, AND TO MOVE. And the shocker is… Joey knew we had to do this. How dare he go and ruin things for me by taking my car at this point in my life. I was just fucking cut off from my parents 2 days before, and now with no car…….

ENOUGH. I’ll go back into denial, because ignoring my problems is my tactic to stay sane.

Here are some pictures from the past week…

Oh, and for those who have not noticed… I edited a bunch of shit on here. Mostly little things, wordpress tags, the dividers, etc. I need to view this on the Imac and see if it looks decent. If it doesn’t… then oh well. To bad for Imac owners (you see, being a spoiled computer nerd I’ve got both types of laptops).

Hello folks.

I reinstalled Wordpress because there were some complications, but everything seems to work well now. I’ve got this theme up; I decided to go for a simple appearance for once.

Well, much has happened since I’ve last posted any news of my life on the internet. I’ve met a bunch of people, not much friendship material, except for Steven – who is … MY BOYFRIEND!  - *gasp* Beth has a boyfriend. Imagine that? He’s a sweetie.

Meanwhile, I’ll see what I can do with this place with the time I have.